Knowing who you are is not easy. For some it takes a lot of time and self exploration to discover who you are and who you want to be.
It was until yesterday that I finally accepted who I am, this means that I no longer feel the need to compare myself with others, I no longer feel worthless with hurtful comments, and I no longer am at the mercy of what other’s think of me. I used to care a lot about what others think about me. Am I being to mean, what if they won’t like it if I do this? I scrutinized everything about myself and made sure to consider the feelings of everyone before I went about doing something. That’s not necessarily a bad thing, but what was a problem was that I lived for that. I lived for others’ approval and I metaphorically got drained out when I didn’t please others.
I realized that finding my identity has a lot to do with personal acceptance and loving myself. Before I was afraid to love myself or build confidence because I didn’t want to come across as narcissistic or arrogant. Now this personal acceptance didn’t just come out of nowhere. For me it came through my faith and God. For everyone, it’s different and I hope you can find it one day. But when I realized my identity was in Christ and that He made me like no one else in the world, I knew that I couldn’t keep pushing myself down. Successful people don’t need to hear what other’s think or say about them (even though they might do so), they know who they are. They know of their own accomplishments and their potential and they don’t need anyone else telling them otherwise.
So yes, I do have a lot of flaws and make mistakes but I will not let that get in the way of how I see myself. The important thing is that I work to fix those mistakes and my problems, but I won’t let them drag me down.
Living life now even though it’s only been 24 hours, I feel light. This isn’t even an exaggeration, but literally I feel like a heavy weight has been lifted off of me. For a few weeks now, I’ve been waking up feeling uninspired and so drained to tackle the day. But not today! I feel ready to tackle anything and pursue my dreams.
Once you find that key and let yourself free, it’s the most amazing. Especially living in the society we do now, it’s hard to know who you are with the constant showering of social media, new norms, and public events going on. You have that voice deep down inside of you somewhere, just keep listening. Don’t drone it out. Despite all the negative comments that once were said about me, in hindsight I knew that I keep pressing down the small voice within me that said, you are worth it. We all have it within us to do whatever we set out to achieve, but make sure you know yourself enough so that you can propel yourself forward in the time that people start challenging who you are, what you value, and your beliefs!