I believe that everything is connected. And no matter where you start, you’ll end up where you need to be. The world is a web, and how I get about my daily life is the process of connecting dots. I think that the most random things sprout from one and the same. You see, I was conflicted because how can two things like love or hate develop from something so similar? I couldn’t process this information, and I still can’t. But when I think I can, that’s when I can move past my weaknesses. The concern is that I thought I was selfless or a person who put other’s concerns above mine. However, during my daily walks to school I constantly immerse myself in potential real life scenarios. I contemplate from a bystanders view, where I’m watching from the outside in, and I think if I was the victim what would I want? I would want bystanders to step in, even if it meant risking their life because it meant that someone acknowledged my existence. And so with that new revelation, I go about my daily life, alert and ready to put myself in the position to help others, because that’s the way I would like to be treated. So now as I sit pondering about life again, am I actually selfish? Does my philosophy that all things are connected pinpoint me as a person I don’t want to be? I don’t know. I really can’t figure things out because my thoughts are weird. Sometimes I explain things and those around me laugh because thoughts are abstract. I think so much sometimes about people and the world that we live in that logic becomes blended with my own ephemeral imagination that I don’t even know what altered thought logic I’m on.
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