When a loved one leaves. The path of footprints that they have left in your heart flash before your eyes. You remember their love and reminisce about the past times you have spent with them. It’s so hard to let go, and so hard to say good bye. It’s so hard to suck it up and move on. Moving on is depressing. And it can be one of the hardest things in life. Life forces you to move on. We can’t stop time and pause ourselves in that void of time. If we don’t move on, life does it for us. Sometimes, I don’t want to move on. I just don’t. I want to never let go. I want the pain to grip my fingers until I can’t feel anymore, because up until that time, at least I can feel. At the least I can feel the emotions I still have for a person, and still love them. But when time goes on, I am afraid. I’m afraid to close that chapter of my life, because I’m afraid that I’ll forget…. And if I forget, then what will become of them, what will become of me? Will they just become a distant glow in the faraway sky. I don’t myself to forget, as I don’t want others to forget. I don’t want others to move on and forget me. And I don’t want to let go of that locket and drop it into the sea. I don’t want to, but I have to. I can’t get stuck in life, not really anyways. We, humans, always have the ability to move on. To let go. I don’t know how we do it, but we do. Well maybe not all of us do it. But there is a point of time where I stop crying and I stop heaving. I realize that my pain can’t bring them back. I can’t do anything about it, no matter what I do. I can save my pain and distress and perhaps make my life better so when they’re watching me from the folds of the universe… I know that they’ll be giving me that beautiful glowing smile that eternally lights me up forever.
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